I’ve been having suicidal thoughts since yesterday. 3 years of sweat and tears gone. 3 years of efforts. I’m extremely depressed and can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t get out of my bed. I just wanna sleep forever and vanish.

What happened : Recently after the Kucoin hack, my coin’s team (KAI) proceeded with a last minute token swap to prevent the stolen KAI from kucoin to be sold by the hacker.
In the confusion following this token swap, I wasn’t able to withdraw my kai tokens from IDEX exchange due to the team pausing withdrawals on Idex (which i was unaware of). So since I couldn’t withdraw, I asked for help in the TG group. Some dude IMPERSONATING a real Kai team member messaged me in private and offered to help. He had the same screen name and avatar as the real admin, same profile bio even.

He said in order to withdraw my tokens from IDEX, i had to go on this weird website (which i found out later was a phishing site) and entered my private key. I hesitated, but because he looked like the real admin and I was desperate to retrieve my funds, i went on a enter my private key. I know, very very stupid. This immediately raised my suspicion though and I contacted the team asap to verify about this guy, and they said he was indeed a scammer
I blocked and reported him. By then it was too late though, my private key had been entered in the phishing site. So I IMMEDIATELY created a new wallet i could transfer my funds into. That was Monday this week.

Yesterday, the Kai team proceeded with the token swap and airdropped all holders on IDEX their new tokens on a 1:1 basis directly on their erc20 wallets. So I received my 3.9M new kai tokens. I was in the process of transferring out my funds to my new, non-exposed wallet (had transferred 100k tokens already as a test) when a hacker STOLE the remaining 3.8M kai from my wallet. Happened so fast.
I can see it all in the Etherscan transactions.
$60k gone in an instant. My lifetime money,my dreams. The money i planned to retire my widowed mom with. Buy her a house and help her out.
A friend who is a YouTuber talked about this in a recent video, in the beginning of this video : https://youtu.be/rnRX2WjOnzc

I feel so sick in my stomach, i vomited the whole night and cried non stop. I been googling how to take a poison.

Hackers take advantage of confused people in need of help, and this is what happened to me in the confusion following the kucoin hack and related token swaps.

I feel worthless, stupid and just wanna disappear forever from the face of the earth. 😢

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  1. DianaPolly on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    Your life isnt just worth $60k, just stay positive and do things which will make you busy or whatever.. There will be good news in every bad news so dont worry too much. We all go through thick times so just keep holding on. Health is wealth just remember that too! Lets have more patience, good news are coming for sure!


  2. Imthecoolestnoiam on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    turn a negative thing into a positive. Make the best of it. Money aint worth a life ever. If u take ur life u also lose that. Suicide is wanting the pain to go away. So deal with it instead and learn from it. Strength to u for the loss. If u still have a roof and food. Ur good. Find nature, live, learn and experience.


  3. nilonilo on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    I lost over 60k in last few years, all of it was borrowed too 🙁

    Focus on things like meditation, good diet and better yourself and don’t think about money much. Become the commodity.


  4. klimauk on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    It is only money. I lost few btc after 2017 bull run (it will be more than you) in simple way – did not sell the coins, and still want to live. Fuck it, if you are healthy in mind and body – this is the most important, not money. Think about it.


  5. Whistle_And_Laugh on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    Don’t kill yourself, let’s start there it’s only 60k. You’ll spend more than that on bullshit over the course of your life.

    Second, never give away your private keys. How did you do this for 3 years and lose your patience over 1 hack? You’ll get it back and at least you’ve learned.


  6. adamdreaming on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    It may seem like every bit of logic is pointing towards ending it all, but keep in mind anyone that made it through a suicidal period also felt that and now looks back feeling glad they didn’t.

    Today kicks rocks, and tomorrow might too, but if you quit then that’s it. Something you don’t expect is around the corner, and if you are in your lowest spot then logically that thing might be better. Logically something will be better. Please stick around long enough to figure out what that is.


  7. brayynzz on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    Dude I’m sorry I’m sure it hurts, I’ve lost a lot of money in this market these past 3 years also… but you truly have to stay positive, think about it, you KNOW about Crypto most people in this planet don’t yet… you still have time to buy some coins and still “Make It”.. this could’ve been worse if you lost it at the peak of the bull run. You still have time.. stay strong, keep pushing.. stay positive, move forward


  8. calcio1020 on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    If you struggle with depression and especially suicidal thoughts you need to get professional help asap. There’s no shame in that. I’ve been there myself. There are some really effective new treatments out there but you have to make the first move yourself. You can DM me if you have questions or just need someone to talk to.

    P.s. if it makes you feel any better, I have about $400,000 in student loan debt.


  9. PickyAlbatross on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    My best friend killed himself by jumping off the most memorable bridge on the west coast (I still can’t say the name and not cry). It ruined his mother. She spends her days in a pit of sadness. If the money was for your ma then just take the loss and find another hustle.

    You can make your money in other ways. If you can’t stay alive for yourself do it for your ma.


  10. Patrickm8888 on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    It’s 60,000, not 6,000,000. Not that any amount of money is worth killing yourself over.

    3 years– that’s a $20,000 a year job if we ignore taxes. $10 an hour. Not exactly an earth shattering sum if you are from a developed country. If you are from a developing country, then you clearly have enough skill and drive to make it back someway somehow.


  11. 1997-2017 on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    it is hard to find safe exchanges to keep coins for us.
    it is hard to maintain wallets by ourselves.
    this year I lost 200 grand on a stock.


  12. kabelman93 on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    I also lost amounts like that, it hurts. The fact that you were able to get 60k in only 3 years is incredible. You probably learned a lot on your way to that money and this also taught you new things.
    You will come out of this stronger than ever, trust me.


  13. earlcottrell on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    You will bounce back my friend. Stay positive. Guys if you’re going to keep all your coins on 1 single exchange you need to be very prepared to lose it all in an instant, that’s the reality of it. Only keep money in an exchange that you’re trading. Make sure you have cold storage options for long term retirement holdings.


  14. RonTurkey on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    Don’t sweat it man. I know it really sucks and really hurts, but jeez, don’t kill yourself over 60 grand. Keep grinding, you can make it back.


  15. MAXBet419 on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    Seen your story mentioned on YouTube (Ron) but now there is a similar problem with people mimicking your story and trying to imitate you but posting their address instead of yours in the comments.

    I hope things get worked out, maybe post the address for confirmation and something people can use as a reference for those that search when choosing to donate to.


  16. tysuke on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    you can get through this man, we all make mistakes. yeah it sucks big time, but brush yourself off and get back into the game. I’ve been in crytpo since 2017 as well and still haven’t managed to get even 20k invested. Also got bit by the makerdao flash crash and lots a few k myself. Anyways we are still super early and lots of opportunities in this space!!


  17. dbof10 on 12. October 2020 at 13:21

    people lost money because of this more than the market crashes. when I learn they always ask me to use cold storage. glad that I always follow what my teacher said